391 : Phone Buzzed.

Cleaning up after breakfast, the familiar sensation of a vibrating phone in my pocket triggered a reflex to check my phone immediately.

"SMS results"

The worst and best thing that University has came up with, its like saying you WILL see the message if you wanna use your phone. Catching their victims unexpectedly, saving them the killer suspense of logging in to check their results. First time I actually signed up for the service and just as I guessed, I failed.

I failed one paper, which just throws every plan of university back one step or rather adding one more semester depending how you see it. Most people say time is precious and everyone should graduate as soon as possible to get a head start in life but to me failing one subject means incurring a shit load of unnecessary cost on my parents' financial plan to push my siblings and I through University. The few hundred i earn each week doing part-time is just a speck compared to the school fees and rent.

Mum called me when I messaged her the news. Hearing her voice telling me it's okay just made me break down and cry. I've disappointed her and my dad. BIG FUCKING TIME. She kept telling me she is proud of me already but it just sucks.. Sending your kids overseas is never easy.. I feel like such a failure to them..

Dumb bitch crying at a corner table of a unlighted restaurant? Yup that's me.

Had to work full day today, 10.30am to 11pm with only 2 hours break in between, I felt so tired and restless, and with the new cocky trainees around, annoyed. Realize how tired I was when my manager came up to me and asked me if I was gay, I just replied "yes" without hesitant, thanks to the little slip up few days ago. Only when I got home 2 hours ago it hit me how careless and stupid I am to actually out to someone that is known to be 2 faced and backstabs if needed. Yea.. The work place gay community ain't gonna be happy about that, gonna put them all in danger..

Had fried noodles and nasi lemak for supper today.. Self reward to fell better.. Gonna get ice cream later maybe.. Nasi lemak literally fat rice.. lol?..

Better go see a course adviser for my next action. First time failing, with a free "feel like fuck" at the bottom of every result slip..

Gonna just have a nice long wank and sleep.
Nights,
Leonut

288 : Scolded in Public

The roads right outside the train station near my university had been closed for construction. Pedestrians now have to walk along the foot path before being able to cross the road to uni due to the barricades set up.

On my way home with a Malaysian friend yesterday, we saw a blind man coming out of the train station. Used to his usual path of crossing the road, he was tapping around the barricades with his white cane trying to cross. Looking a bit frustrated not knowing what was going on, my friend pat him on the shoulder.

"Sir, you have to go this way now", while guiding him to face the foot path. Before my friend could even explain why, he was cut off and we were both yelled at by the man. 

"HANDS OFF YOU KIDS!! DON'T YOU DARE TAKE MY WALKING STICK!! GO AWAY!!". We were both caught unexpectedly and baffled by how angry he was or the fact that there are actually people who wanted to take his white cane that gave him the idea that we were one of those kids. My friend literally jumped and backed off.  Before he got angrier, we manage to calm him and explain to him about the construction and everything. 

After everything he said "thank you" and storm off using another way..

The sucky feeling like we did something bad lingered on us the whole way back. Being yelled at in public by a stranger isn't a good feeling. 

Really feel sympathy for those born with disabilities..
Just makes you appreciate life more..

Leonut

201 : Friend vs Results

"I dont care about Dan, he is going to Adelaide to chance after this STUPID girl. I am not going to let his stupid decisions ruin our chances of getting a good score.  I seriously have no idea what is going through his mind. I don't know how we are going to break it to him but we are going to do it tomorrow!"

So much for friendship.

Got a call from an assignment group mate last night. She, Dan and I was suppose to be in a group together seeing how we 3 were supposedly "close". You know the moment the tutor says 'in a group of 3 to 5' you will naturally think that you would group together with your closes friends in your class? Well, this bitch doesn't get that.
She was nice and all but seriously?
Kicking him out of the group just like that because you want good marks?
If he was going for like a month i would understand but its less then a week and the assignment is due in 2 weeks and the questions are damn easy!

The second the assignment was announced she became such a control freak its quite scary..
It would be a matter of time she kicks me out the group...

LOL!~

Leo Nut!