167 : Disbelieve

After yesterday's talk with my sister, she still told me she still keeps her stands on how people are gay.

She doesn't believe that being gay is what we are born to be or rather a choice where we can choose who we are attracted to.

I know everyone is going to be like :

"Do you think we choose to be born into a life of discrimination?"

But when I heard what she said, it really opened up eyes to a different prospective of this topic, something that has never crossed my mind before.

Taking celebrities for example, Angelina Jolie, there have been reports that she had turned lesbian, again, and had an affair with her first love, a lesbian supermodel called Jenny Shimizu. Through the years there have also been many reports of men, leaving their spouses for the people of the same gender. I would really love to give examples but I'm really tired to find them.. The way i see all these breakups are the people finally having the courage to come out from their staged life and pursue their happiness but what the public sees is them presumably suddenly became gay. Adding to the perception of being gay is a choice.

So that little fact has been accepted by my sister as the reason being gay is a choice. Anyways, i wouldn't try to change her mind set. Will just let her be at the moment.

She did mention that she hopes in 5 or 10 years i can actually hold my boyfriend's(If i do have one) hand in public in Malaysia. Imagine in about 5 years ago, phones were only used for sms and calls, now its touch screen with facebook and twitter. Who knows about the future?

Pray for the best,
Love always,
Leo

166 : My Sister

"Eh.. Come~", I said to my Sister while waving my hand, urging her to come with me.

"Whyyyyy??", she replied.

I had to drag her out of her bed and push her to my room. Where it happened.

I hugged her tightly and broke down crying.. I couldn't bare it anymore. I really needed someone to talk to about what I'm going through. I really needed a hug.

I told her about B., about how its not working out. She told me she knew all along. She found my blog a while back but never read it which explains a missing post now. She knew about me and B. We had a really personal talk in general. I told her everything, from the start till the present, about KL which she also knew, about what im going through, about my fears for the future.

Basically a lot of emotions was in the air. My eyes flowed like a burst pipe and she was there with me. We just talked.. for almost 2 hours.

Really glad she accepted it well. She gave me some advice and i was trembling from the crying..
Feeling much better now.. Glad to know i can turn to her when i really need help. She even offered to go to a gay club with me if i wanted to.. lol!

Thanks Sister. Love you!

But sis.. WTF WEI!! You knew about everything. Seriously???? Even KL??? WHAT???????

Your dumbass brother,
Leo