Wednesday, 30 November 2011

117 : Impromtu trip and A repost.

Today, after going to do some work for this Saturday's flashmob, few of us dancers from the same dance studio suppose to head back to Subang from Hartamas. We made a wrong turn!! We ended up turning to the bukit kiara toll and we were panicking for small change, we never expected to see a toll. After that we had to find a way to Subang Jaya.
What people say are wrong!! Boys are better then girls in directions?? The 2 of us guys in the car, including the driver were clueless on where we are going, the girl however, has a map drawn out in her brain.. When we manage to reach Subang Jaya, we couldnt find a parking and my friend, frustrated said "AIYA!! Go Sunway shop and eat la!!"

So random.. Then we went to sunway! In sunway, all the parking spaces has the little green and red lights that indicates if the parking space is available.
Photo not by me.. But you get the idea..

So childish of us. We spent 5 mins trying to make the green light go red! Haha.

Went for Carl's Junior for lunch and i paid for 2 of my friends.. Why?.. I have no idea. Remind me to get back my money.. During the lunch, we had an idea. To have performance. Will upload the whole thing the second we perform it for everyone!

On the way back, We got lost twice.. We couldnt find the car.. Went upstairs, walked around, Ran around, found out it was the wrong floor, went a different floor.. Wrong again.. Felt so failed at the end..

Overall, it was an awesome way to end the month of november after all the hell it has brought to me.. Hopefully the month of December will treat me better then this month.

Found this repost on my facebook wall today, ignore the repost thingy. Give it a read. I found mine quite funny.. haha!

Happy End of November,
Which baby are you?

Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.


Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.


Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days.

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.


Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.


Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.


Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.


This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive

Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.

Monday, 28 November 2011

116: Brotherly love

While in a restaurant waiting for the food, i catch a glimpse of a familiar face through a small tainted window of a door to a private room. There was a party going on in there. Being unsure i nudge my brother for the confirmation i needed. He looked like someone from my college group.

"Hm.. I'll sms him and see if its really him"

The second i sent the message, my brother confirmed it was really him with the sighting of another college mate, A. Excited, i decided to give him a call.

Ck : Eh Longkang!! Keluar!!!
A   : Huh?
Ck : Come outtt!!
A   : Wait ah~

A opened the door, looked around and saw me. Surprised, He then proceeded to run towards my table. He was so cute! Reached my table, politely greeted my parents and brother, then gave me a warm hug he always gives me. He was in a high school party and i so happen was having dinner in the same restaurant, seated on a chair perfectly angled to face that door. What stroke of coincidence right?

My "longkang" brother. The closest friend i had in college and the one i will miss most dearly.
He never fails to make me happy when he is around. Humble, selfless and a good friend.
Once, my parents got lost while finding a location near his house and A actually drove all the way from his house to lead us to our destination!
Yes sadly, he is straight..
Just really happy to have a friend like him. I dont love him in a crush way but a brotherly way.

Ahh.. I will miss my longkang bother so much!

Anyone else has a "longkang" brother? haha!


Saturday, 26 November 2011

115 : Crushes

First of all, thank you all so much for your feedback on Melbourne or Perth! I shall ponder over it a while more and make a decision as soon as my results permit. 
♥ you guys!
Recently i was going through my picture folders in my computer and found pictures of my student exchange to japan 2009. Looking through them i remember i had a crush on a guy that was in the same trip! Lets call him "H"
One of the lovely streets of japan!

I remembered in the airport itself i had my eye on him.. He was surrounded by a group of friends, came across me as the popular type, chances of getting close to him was minute. Will just admire him from a far i guess..

No, he isnt the hunky build type, just an average build guy, shorter then me. I just
  thought he was really cute.

Unknowing how it happened, less then 24 hours later, i was best friends with him!! We chat a lot and really connected. We had many similarities, the way we think, the way we work, etc. Except for one thing.. He has a girlfriend.. Gasp, another straight one that caught my heart.

I'm sure most of you guys know about the public hot springs bathing in japan right?
Where stripping nude was mandatory, asset exposures was inevitable. Perfect playground for wondering eyes.. No, nothing happened there, but i did get to catch japan's national volleyball team soaking there. one word, HOT!! Freaking toned muscles, sharp japanese features and nice assets too if you may.. haha!

That aside, we stayed in a youth hostel. Each dorm had bathrooms that were like little public baths, equipped with a a large tub and 3 stools for showering. On the last night in the youth hostel, H and i were chatting with 2 other malaysian girls till late. By the time we came back to the guys dorm, most of them had already taken their baths and slept. So we both decided to go take a bath!

So awkward!! Stripping nude beside a friend! Any how, we both got in the bathing room and sat on the stools and showered. During that time.. i awkwardly got a boner.. a full hard on... i have no idea why..  I had to sit there for 10 minutes pretending to wash my hair waiting for the boner to go down! So paiseh!! What if he saw?? After showering people usually go soak in the hot spring water to warm the body. The second it went down i immediately went in the tub which he was already in. Gahhh!! Too bad he couldn't stand the heat and left shortly after.. I just soaked there thinking about my self embarrassment which thank god he did not notice..

Now after 2 years, we seldom keep in contact anymore. He stays in Johor while Im in KL. Another contributing factor would be i dont understand his written English since he is a Chinese speaker but cant read chinese..

Just one of my many crush stories i shall offer to you all for entertainment purposes..

I have been watching victorian secret fashion shows.. OMG!~ The angels!! I love their wings so much!! So beautiful!!


Till next time,

Thursday, 24 November 2011

114 : Choices..


I'm not denying it, in 3 months time, I'm leaving to Australia, the decision is final, and somewhat compulsory.

My future is planned from the start, the day i was born, the planners had decided the path i will take, scratch that, the path my siblings and i will take. My kindergarten, primary school, high school, even tuitions, each guided and weightage of my opinions were taken to a minimum. I do pity my older sister, being the oldest sibling in the family, she was legacy in the family.  She went for classes and tuitions that my mum sent, and my twin brother and i didn't if my sister did not progress from the tuition. She was the experiment guinea pig if you may.

I look up to my sister, and i love her dearly..


She is homophobic.. So are my parents but lets focus on my sister now..

I'm suppose to join my sister in Australia..
I am suppose to stay with my sister and my brother when i go to Melbourne to study. It would save a ton of money and can greatly reduce the pressure on my family's financial liquidity. Her even homophobic boyfriend who i secretly dislike might be joining us to. Okay.. get back to point..

I have a choice.. To go to Melbourne to study or to Perth..

If i go to Perth i would be free from any family pressure what-so-ever, i have been with my twin every step of life since birth and i would seriously love to have freedom.. but i would be breaking my sister's heart.. She has been excitedly planing for our arrival since a few months ago.. Finding places to rent and setting aside money to buy furniture. I dont have any friends going to Perth and I'm honestly terrified of going there without any support. What if i face an emergency? My closes family member would be 4 hours away.

If i go to Melbourne, i would have to stay with my sister and it would be bloody awkward. I tired outing to her a few weeks back and she has regarded it as "a phase" which annoyed the hell out of me. I have friends in Melbourne and I have my sister to guide me along.

Honestly i dont know what i'll choose..
I dont know if my given freedom of choosing a University is an illusion..
Will i have the guts to stray from my planned route?..

3 months,
Till then,

You are in genting now.. The trip i was suppose to go with you, we would be cuddling by now.. I remember how happy i was when you invited me to go with you... I woke up depressed again.. Wondering if everything that had happened was just a dream..

Tuesday, 22 November 2011

113 : ITS A SIGN!!

A sign from the heavens above that I shouldn't wank anymore.. haha!
First the curse happened and now this..

I actually find it awfully funny thinking back about it..
Its been like a week since i last did it (lost the mood).
So, yesterday night i decided to beat it off..
Went into the toilet which light were often flicking, was about time to change the bulb..
Got it started..
Skipping details, when i reached climax, right the second i release..
Precum flowing~

The lights died..

Cumming after a week in pitch darkness..
Cant even see how far it went..
So anti climatic!!!!

OMG!! So embarrassing writing about this!!

Dear heavens!! I'm listening!! What is my next step?? What do you have install for me??


Monday, 21 November 2011

112 : Roses bloom..

I am extremely fascinated with flowers, roses in particular.
During the flash mob for cadbury wishes event on saturday, we were given flowers to "welcome" the contest winner for his special birthday surprise.

Okay, side track for a while. The flash mob!
It isn't really a flash mob, we had to paint our faces and even the emcee announced there was going to be a flash mob. So much for the surprise? 

*Image removed*
Tada!! Quite wtf right?..

So after the flashmob there were extra bouquets of flowers, and i toke a bouquet of roses home for my mum(no one wanted it because it was full of thorns).
Such a beautiful flower and it has thorns..
So poetic right?? haha
My mum was so happy and excited! The second she got home she started preparing the roses.
The way the roses bloom is just breathtaking..
The amount of leaves and thorns we removed..

First day..
Second day..
Today! It bloomed so beautifully!

Yes, i am easily amused, and often labelled as a mama's boy.. >.<!

Being you, would you love getting flowers as a gift?

Would love get your opinions.
Till then.

Saturday, 19 November 2011

106 (111) : Free meal??

There is no such thing as a free meal..
Today my mum decided to go for expensive food to fictionally celebrate a joyful occasion -American express crediting the bank account with Rm250 extra.. 
So use the Rm250 to pay for the food? XD
I know.. Sounds so evil and greedy but cant blame us what... been years we went to celebrate anything. XD

So decided to go lobster man! haha, been 4 years since we been there!
They have crayons for you to scribble the tables!! hm...  what did i scribble?
Escargot!~ XD

Mushroom soup~

Lobster thermidor with butter we forgot to use..

Garlic lobster.

Spaghetti and cheese & Rice and cheese!

Complementary tea and jelly dessert! 
The meal was AWESOMMEEE!!

Anyways.. when we tried paying with the american express card, it was rejected.. Haha! Karma is a bitch right??  I burst out laughing and told my mum,
"See la!! Now need to pay with hard earn cash !!"

And now we decided im going to pay the bill with the flashmob pay im getting.. ><!


Anyways, flashmob today was fun! We had to paint out faces and hands with the matching colour of what we were wearing.
I wore white..
All those who wore black!!
They had to paint their faces charcoal black! EPIC FUNNY!! Will upload some photos soon.

Till then,

Thursday, 17 November 2011

110 : Last time

This shall be my last time I'm going to blog about emotional stuff..

Yes, i have not yet go.. Dreams just draw my heart closer to him, the body contact, the warmth.. everything just seems so real..
I wake up tearing..
I really really miss him.. secretly i wish the feeling is mutual..
I still do wonder if i did something wrong.. To have made his feelings towards me deplete so quickly..
Seeing him with R everyday just hurts more..
Even when i was with him, R was always there with us..
R likes KL.. He actually told me before my break up which makes everything more painful..

I need to let go..

I cant take it any longer, thought that we were stronger, all we do is linger, slipping through my fingers, I don't want to try now, all that's left is goodbye to find a way to tell you, i hate this part right here.. I'm sure you never mean to hurt me, but i never thought we fall out of place. I wish you never looked at me that way. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing, when a heart breaks it don't break even. What am i suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you are okay, I'm falling to pieces.. Dear.. If i lay here, if i just lay here, would you lie with my and just forget the world? Forget what we are told, before we get too old, show me garden that is bursting full of life.. Never mind, i'll find someone like you... I wish nothing best for you too. Don't forget me, i think I'll remember you said, sometimes it last in love sometimes it hurts instead. In another life, I'll be your guy, we'll keep full our promises, it'll be us against the world. In another life, i would make you stay, so i don't have to say you are the one that got away. I hope you see right through my walls, i hope that you'll catch me because I'm already falling, you put your arms around me and I'm home.. Honestly, if you ask me, how I'm doing, I'll say I'm doing just fine, i'll lie and say that you aren't on my mind.. I still love you...

The soundtracks of my days...
I'll need time..
I'll recover..
Till then..

Wednesday, 16 November 2011

109 : Reality

Everyone has an ideal person in mind, but i was just wondering how many of us really get our ideal person?..
So far since form 4, i fell hard for 2 guys, both not my ideal, yet they were both similar..
Am i kidding myself with my ideal? Do i make sense?
To me an ideal guy is a guy that is perfect in my eyes, and totally out of my league.

Recently, one of my friend found a guy, not his type but he seems really happy with him.
Just really happy for him yet quite sad that im single..
I know.. There is nothing wrong with being single but i just really miss the warmth i felt when i hugged KL..
Just only today i woke up from a dream that i got to met him again...

Okay... I totally lost the aim for this post.. 
Prom was yesterday..
Performed a dance, went wild with friends on the open dance floor, and drop my camera and it broke..
Surprisingly, the only person that caught my eye was a teacher.. haha?

Too fancy?

Quite confuse with life's direction,

Monday, 14 November 2011

108 : The purpose..

This place is usually so lively in the afternoons, music blasting, people dancing, friends chatting, the perfect hang out spot.
Night falls and the place becomes empty, only computers and a dim light..
Everyone had gone home, only a few of us stayed back for last minute preparations..

Someone like you, Arms, The one that got away, Superman, Not over you..
Sad songs playing in the air,
My fault...
I was alone anyways, everyone was in a different room..
Just reminiscing about the past i guess..
Hugging ducky close to me, tightly..

Suddenly, my friend sat next to me..
She sat and listen with me followed by another friend.
I knew she connected to the songs..
Something seem to be bugging her..

She lean on my friends shoulder and began crying,
He proceeded to comfort her..
"nah.. take him", i gave ducky to her.. She hugged him..

Yup.. That is the reason i bought ducky..
To comfort me when I'm sad,
For me to hug when i need something soft to squeeze.
Sounds pathetic right?
I'm just happy that ducky does comfort people, not only her, but some other friends that are down.

And how do i take ducky around where i go?

Like a chihuahua? =D

Anyways, exams are over! My wings are now available till February.
Anyone got any suggestions on how to occupy myself?
So far i got 2 trips, 2 dance jobs and a charity job planned..
Clubbing maybe? haha


Saturday, 12 November 2011

107 : Day Trip!~

Day trip!!!
Although sexuality merdeka was cancelled, a few of my friends still wanted to check it out the venue if there was anything hidden going on and i got invited to follow!
So anyways, met in college around 11 and we walked to subang ktm station in the rain..
My god.. The ktm toke a good 20 minutes to arrive.
First time using the ktm in so long.. The women's carriage is just so weird...
Decided to eat in KL central. This restaurant waitress trying to pull customers in was like "Leng chai!~ Makan sini la.. Sini sedap!"
Too bad it doesnt work on us hor?? If a cute guy did it.. then maybe i'll go in?.. haha

So anyways, we reached central market. It was quite amusing to me, i've been to central market so often and the 3 of the 4 other friends had never been there before. Like bringing tourist there, they started touching this and that.. A few times i actually turned by back and say "I dont know you, i'll be there when you are done" and "Dont Sakai Pleasee!!"

Initially, we planned to send the two straight ones from our group to check out the venue in case we get detained or something.. We dint know what to expect.. The place had a police in full uniform standing around.

Unfortunately, the place was closed, we then proceeded to camwhore in the old style lift at the Annexe gallery. Going up and down the lift just to get the best picture, haha!
Basically since it was closed, we just hanged out the whole day, chatting and joking away. It was really fun getting to know each other better.

Overall i was quite disappointed it was close.. If only the government would be more open about everything. So call members of the united nations and they cant even delivery basic human rights..

Was really happy seeing alot of my straight friends defending and commenting on the seksualiti merdeka "fan page" though. Its really nice to see that they are so many guys and girls that are accepting. All those homophobic assholes, why do you have to dish out the hate on a fan page? Why cant they just leave everything alone? Dont say anything if you got nothing nice to say right?

Since i cant make it this year.. Maybe next year?

Ps.. I dint bring ducky to central market.. i was scared he got stolen.. lol

Friday, 11 November 2011

111 (106) : New begining

11.11.11. 11.11pm

I shall dedicate this post to my close friends and vin. XD

Look forward to the wonders and mysteries that life has installed for you.
Close your eyes, make a wish.

Its a new day!  A new beginning!
Your perfect man will come soon,
You just haven't met him yet.

Wishing you guys all the best for the remaining year,
Ck and ducky. <3 <3

Thursday, 10 November 2011

105 : I am hopeless

Yes, im extremely hopeless.
You create this barrier in your mind, telling you stop, telling you that you have been hurt, stay away, let things be, forget, let go..
Fortify your barrier, strengthen with steel, drill with nails and build with bricks..
Swear a bit.. Scream a bit..
Im ready.. I wont feel a thing.. Im strong..

Then i see you...
Cracks appear in the barrier, everything comes crashing down, into pieces...
Every single advice that people told me just vanish..
I feel like crying.. i miss you..
I really really do..
I miss your voice...
I wanted to talk to you..

People keep tell me don't let you get the satisfaction of having someone clinging on to you..
I really dont know what im feeling..
You probably dont care..
I doubt you still read my blog..

After my exam i wanted to look for you..
But i dint had the guts.. Then i did something stupid...

Im hopeless..

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

104 : Sexuality Merdeka?

Can anyone update me?
Is it banned? Or is the banned lifted?
I was actually planning of going for the event with a friend on Saturday..
Anyone else might be going? We can met up! =]

Ck and Duckie

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

103 : Ma duck

Its been so long since i spent money to buy anything just for the sake of making myself happy. So today, i decided to to buy soft toy duck.. since ducks are so freaking cute!!
Woke up early in the morning to go midvelley. My god.. The whole building.. i found only 2 shops that sell ducks.. Such a disappointment!!
The second i found the duck! I got so excited!! It was so freaking cute!! but i was a little hesitance.. Should i buy?? It was 80 bucks..
Then suddenly.. a couple walked by me, picked up the exact duck i put down a min ago and started checking the quality and all.
In my mind :"OMFG!! DONT BUY IT, DONT BUY IT!! PLEASE!! I WANT THE YELLOW DUCK!!!! TAKE THE BLACK ONE!!" (it was the last duck..)
As if my prayers were answered.. They put down the duck!!
Swiped the duck the second they left and ran to the counter to pay! haha!

Its just so cute!! With a small quote by the side saying "Give me a hug!"

Anyways! The reason to buy a duck? To

Cuddling my new duck to a nap,
Ck <3

102 : Mixed rants.

1. Children
Only yesterday i commented on someone's blog saying i really don't like little kids. There are super annoying etc etc. But something changed that today. So my Singaporean cousin came to visit with their son. Just a little boy around 3 or 4 years old. He calls me "叔". Haha, so freaking cute the way he calls me!! Okay, i was still terrified of him. What if i do something, and he cries or something??
Anyways, today while we were walking to a restaurant for dinner, being a little kid, he was running along the black tiles against the white ones. So naturally his dad told him don't go running around, hold someone's hand. Then the little boy came over to me and reach for my hand. AWWWWWWWWW!! My heart melted!
So after spending some time with "khai khai", i find that little children are an okay for me now.. as long as they are brought up properly.

2. Self Control
Resist the urge to sms "I miss you". Before the glue dries and is strong enough, dont touch the broken heart pieces.

3. Gaga
Lady gaga's performance in the EMA!! The screen shots looks amazing!! but.. I cant bring myself to watch it.. Each time i hear gaga's songs.. reminds me of him and how he loves gaga. I still can recall his voice singing You and I.. i cant..

4. Regarding my post 101
Okay.. few people says their appetite was ruin by the bamboo clam (thanks ooi2009!), so i decided to post some pictures of my favorite dish i ate just now.. XD
Sang har noodles!!

The prawn...

To die for!! The waitress stood there for a good 2 mins wondering if she should change my plate cause i was clearly done with the dish but was scrapping the little pieces of meat from the shell.. haha

The only reason i toke this picture cause i really liked the platting..

The most unique thing i've eaten tonight.. Fish scale jelly with lychee and lime. Oddly it tasted wonderful! The jelly practically melts in your mouth and has this tangy fishy taste but at the just right amount.. Awesomeness!! 

Short and Sweet,

Sunday, 6 November 2011

101 : The penis clam??

 Went for a steamboat buffet dinner in ss2 today. Rm27 for all you can eat buffet steam boat. =]
They had this clams called the jackknife clam as google has now informed me.. I had eaten them lots of times before but this time.. upon closer inspection.. I realize they look like a penis..  Does it to you?? haha

Just had to take a picture..

Tasted horrible though.. They dint clean it properly hence the black sandy center that was totally gross! Felt so bad, toke about 5 of them and dint eat any of them..
Anyways. Dinner there was awesome! Its called Plus One or something.. Go check it out! =D

Still very full,

Friday, 4 November 2011

100 : Poem from a loved one.

"A chapter over,
another page turned,
another heart broken,
another lesson learned,
there are times we will cry, there are times we will fall,
but other times we learn, he wasn't worth it at all."
-Cyren Wong 2011

Haha, 100th post dedicated for you my dear friend Cyren! Thanks for always being there for me!!
Now stop staying over in uni before you get raped by a *ghost.

*Ray in a ghost costume? haha


Thursday, 3 November 2011

99 : Young Activist

Today Cyren introduced me to a young boy.
Whats so special about him?
The way he comments on hate groups and fight for rights.
My god, his only 16!!

One of his many comments :
"Don't you think it's a little too far to go to an extent where you create a HATE-group to prevent people who share consensual love to be together mainly using 'Allah' or 'God' as a base point? I understand Malaysia is a secular country but we are forgetting something far more important here. Do you actually think god or any higher-being whatsoever would approve of your condemnation and hate towards other people who are clearly harmless and in no way whatsoever has any inclination that would hurt others?

What the couples in the pictures are doing is nothing but merely love between each other and for the child, what's so wrong with that? I'm really confused! Do you have any idea at all how many teenagers have killed themselves because they were gay?Because of the discrimination from society? And in case if you didn't know, NO ONE CHOSE TO BE GAY anymore than you chose to be straight! Why would someone choose to be hated or discriminated by the society or worse of all, having to face the extremely scary process of telling your conservative parents that might kick you out, that you are gay? Wouldn't life be easier if we were all straight?

But guess what? Gays, lesbians, bisexuals and transgendered people do exist in this world and nothing can change that. So why the hell are you hating on them for something they cannot change when you can just accept them for who they are and make this world a better place to be in? FUN FACT : Homosexuality exists in over 400+ species in animals, but homoPHOBIA only exists in one, which is the human species. Which one is unnatural now? Worst of all you are taking away their rights as a human being to love merely because of their sexual orientation. This is just sad.

I really don't know what is this 'keakhiran zaman' you guys are speaking of. If there's any cause of 'keakhiran zaman', it's ignorance. It's far more easier to hate than to actually try and understand. Please do a proper research and make sure you actually understand the LGBTQ community before you condemn them. Good day

He writes like a pro! Im sure he will do well in uni research projects.. LOL
Really admire how he is so active is defending our rights.
When i was his age i was still crushing over my first love. lol!
Feel so bad that the longest post in my blog aren't even my words..

What were you guys doing at the age of 16? Closet? Having "fun"? haha


Wednesday, 2 November 2011

98 : Numb

Numb.. Stressed.. Frustrated.. Annoyed..
I'm getting very moody and emo because of the weather..
Because of exams.. because of the direction my life is going..
Because imy..

My eyes hurt..
When i go to sleep.. i see you..
I have the similar dreams as the past..
Every single time..

Part of me refuse to believe..
I'm holding on..
I'm doing things that conflicts with everything i want to do..
I dont believe..
I need to focus..


97 : Exams

Half way writing a letter during the english paper..
"Attention students, you have 5 mins left, please ensure that you write your name, write your......"
I rush through the whole damn letter. Thank god it was a letter of complaint, just bitch about how fictionally unsatisfied i was. That moment, i literally saw a B flash in my head, i saw my ATAR dropping, my uni applications rejected, me crying when the results came out. OMG! its only the first paper and all this flashing in my mind. lol

"Times up, please put down your pens!"

And then i looked at the content that i just wrote down... I couldn't read my writing.. 1 down, 4 to go??