402 : Death is stupid.

I don't know how I stumbled across this video (I'm not suicidal..), but this just makes me tear up..

I know recently someone passed away from a hit and run incident.
Seeing friends post tributes to him and all just breaks my heart honestly..

But live and let die?..
I don't know..

The video is about suicide though, but I can assume the after effects, although not severe, can be similar when you see people taken away unexpectedly..

Just thinking about death just confuses me..
Bittersweet?

Don't know..

If i died right now, the thing I want most is for my parents to know about me..
To read my blog if possible and finally know me in detail and understand me completely..
Hopefully to accept me as well...

Lol, tiring day!
I need to get my study engine going.. =(

Leonut

284 : Fragile

Checking twitter and facebook today, I saw 3 different condolence post.
Not some celebrity passed away, RIP to them post,
but friends of friends.

I guess at my age range, death isn't a common visitor, unlike my mother and grandmother's conversations which commonly goes "is ___ still here?", most of us are unprepared. A death happening doesn't pass through our minds, only studies, work, love etc.

One post posted was about a few of my friend's mutual lecturer. Found hanging by his neck this morning, suicide success. I don't know any details but it broke my heart when i read about it. 

Suicide is never a free pass to escape your troubles. Its a free pass to pass your troubles to others, one of the most selfish acts a person can do. Imagine the people who love you and cared for you, imagine how they would feel knowing they failed in supporting you and helping you overcome your problems, how they would feel knowing they could have done something to prevent it.

Yes, i know i don't know how suicidal people feel and think but i do know how the people close to them would feel.

Life is fragile ain't it?..  :(

There are always people out there that can help.
My deepest condolence, RIP.
Leonut.