270 : Peter Pan

Was watching Peter Pan today.

At the end of the movie,
Wendy said :

"Oh, mother, We are back! All except the lost boys, they weren't quite ready ; to grow up! That's why they went back to Never Land ; But i am ; to grow up!"

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Really got me thinking..
I am hell not ready to grow up..

I really don't have much to look forward to in the future..
It's not like i can get married, have my own child and all that..
I got my education part already laid out on a silver platter and yet I am really not looking forward to see what i will be doing in 5 years time..

And people say surrogate mother and all that but..
Whose sperm?.. Yours or your partner's?
And if you get two child with both your own sperm and partner's with same mother..
That's the fear of them not getting along and bias'ness and all that..

Been thinking of the future alot lately..
About where i will be, who* i will be with etc..

Lol,
I'm thinking too much for my age..

Leonut.

268 : Anuptaphobia

Anuptaphobia Noun

1. The Fear of staying single.

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There are few types of people, 

People who are :

-Looking for a partner, 

-Looking for a sex partner,

-Waiting patiently for a miracle,

-Happily attached, and,

-Not so loyally attached.. 

Not exactly a phobia I have but as many of us in the plu world who are not looking for a one night of lustful fun, I'm waiting for a miracle.. Lol

Isn't Bellatrix just Sexy??

Was talking to a close friend a few weeks back and somehow we ended up making a promise to each other.

Like Snape and Narcissa making their life bond promise,

Assuming our market value deprecation leaves us with a near minimum netbook market value in 11 years,

We agreed if we are still single by the age of 30, 

We would get together.. Lol


Quite funny now I think about it, yet scary at the same time..
Wonder where everyone will be in 10 years time.
What i will be doing, will I enjoy work etc..

The future is scary isn't it?..

Leonut.

191 : A letter for the present and future.

Dear future partner,

I might not have met you yet and i am still excited to the day i actually meet you. Falling in and out of relationships, i am constantly learning. Learning to deal with emotions, to deal with others, troubles, problems and generally becoming a better person. Hopefully till the day i meet you, i will learn enough to hold a sense of maturity yet still have my personality.

I am not the best looking or the hottest person. People don't turn heads when i walk by and I am seldom the top of people's minds. I am just an average person. To make up for my looks i am really trying to work out often . My body isn't where i want it to be, improvements can be made. But i really don't want to be the best looking or the cutest in the room, i want you to fall for my personality, internal factors. Body and looks don't last forever, people get old, but personalities last with time, only changing and twisting to adapt to the present.

I am childish and i love to be. Although not always, i would love for you to be there for me to protect me while i just fall back to myself. The world is such a harsh place as i have recently learned, people can be really hypocritical and back stabbing is common practice to achieve their personal goals. People are selfish. Being pure and innocent just doesn't get you anywhere, a harsh exterior is compulsory. I really hope when i am with you, i can lower all defenses and just be myself, childish and playful.

Dancing is partially who i am. I am not the best dancer but i really enjoy it. I love how the body can synchronize with the beats and lyrics of music and move accordingly, creating a new world, a story that can be seen instead of heard. I feel confident when dancing. My chest naturally pushes out, chin held high, and pulses of energy just surges through my limbs. I hope when i find you, you will share the same world as i do, we can teach each other dance styles and techniques. Maybe we can dance together.

I am studying accountancy. It may sound artificial but i hope you will be in a similar field as me if not same. I want to be able to come home from work to you and share work stories with you. If you were a doctor, i guess communication would be hard, the humor we share will be different..

There are so many things i would love to share with you. No matter what happens, when the world are against us, we will face the demons together. Side by side, hand in hand. As long as you are always there for me, and never play with my heart or abandon me. I will never ever leave you. I will always stay by your side and support you completely and selflessly.

I know this whole post sounds so cheesy but this is my letter to you.. I will be waiting patiently while improving myself.. Hope i can met you in the near future.

If possible maybe in Disney Land?.. :3

Lots of love,
Leo