352 : Titanic - Rose

Was watching titanic again and it really got me wondering a lot of things.
How do you get dry so fast between each water wave?..

But honestly, there is a question i would really appreciate your opinions..

In the story, Rose found the love of her life. Getting painted nude by someone she newly met, *cough*slut*cough* but lost him soon after. I'm sure everyone knows the story.

My question :
Losing the person you know you want to spend your life with, would you get marry to another person?
I mean the thought of never giving your heart completely to the person you love but to give it to someone partially, would you?

I guess staying a 'widow' wouldn't be a good idea as well...

hmmm?
Leonut

240 : Mine or Hers?

You gave your heart to her..
And now, without her knowing, you are giving apart of it to me..

Charming person you are, i never noticed them till now..
Months of friendship with a hidden secret,
exposed now to show your deepest feelings.

The abundant similarities we share,
interest in common and personality just shocks me..
Something tells me we would have alot of fun together..

But it all comes down to the question..
Is your heart mine to take if it belongs to a girl?..

217 : Stuck in the Middle.

Ever got stuck between two people's conflict and don't know what to do?
Both sides tell you their part, both having their stand and both not in the wrong.
Siding either of them just seems unfair for the other..

While talking to a friend recently, he told me about a problem he was facing.
A close friend of his stopped talking to him completely, without an apparent reason.
He was quite bump and down about it as they were previously very close.
Although he kept his friend anonymous, i knew who he was referring too, and the reason too..
I felt bad.. the fact that i couldn't say anything..  Both parties told me things and i can't tell either of them..

Another is between my close friends, the were in the relationship before but broke up a while back.
The guy obviously still likes her and he does the sweetest things in my opinion for her..
The girl however, doesn't feel the same.. And they both tell me stuff too..
You cant expect the girl to be in a relationship when she doesn't feel the same way right?
Anyways.. Stuck in the middle.. I really wish i can advice them but its impossible to give an advice without being bias to one's feelings knowing how both of them feels..

For the first story, i'm just going to sit aside and hope it unfolds by itself..
The second however..
Sign..

Love,
Leonut.

209 : Ready?

Am I ready?
To let someone take my heart again?

To the guy that started calling me "teddy bear", heck no.

But that guy that started wishing me good morning and good nights..
I know he isn't a good guy..
But...
Hm...

I am that unstable huh?..
Lol...

Everyone that ever ever show interest in me only had interest for a short period of time..
1 month at most..
lol..
Soon la.. Will be ignored as everyone else.

183 : New Crush.. Help?..

Okays.. I feel so slutty..
So i was browsing through facebook a few days ago and i found this guy through my friend's profile...

Just a normal profile but..
I'm not sure why i feel like he is really special..
Someone i can spend my life with..
What am i suppose to do?..

Should i go talk to him?..
What if i sound like some desperate guy..
What should i say..

DILEMMA!!! :(

Anyone can help me..
His profile is here btw..
Anyone knows him personally?

Wish I can tell him how i feel about him..

Leo.

114 : Choices..

Choices..

I'm not denying it, in 3 months time, I'm leaving to Australia, the decision is final, and somewhat compulsory.

My future is planned from the start, the day i was born, the planners had decided the path i will take, scratch that, the path my siblings and i will take. My kindergarten, primary school, high school, even tuitions, each guided and weightage of my opinions were taken to a minimum. I do pity my older sister, being the oldest sibling in the family, she was legacy in the family.  She went for classes and tuitions that my mum sent, and my twin brother and i didn't if my sister did not progress from the tuition. She was the experiment guinea pig if you may.

I look up to my sister, and i love her dearly..

But..

She is homophobic.. So are my parents but lets focus on my sister now..

I'm suppose to join my sister in Australia..
I am suppose to stay with my sister and my brother when i go to Melbourne to study. It would save a ton of money and can greatly reduce the pressure on my family's financial liquidity. Her even homophobic boyfriend who i secretly dislike might be joining us to. Okay.. get back to point..

I have a choice.. To go to Melbourne to study or to Perth..

If i go to Perth i would be free from any family pressure what-so-ever, i have been with my twin every step of life since birth and i would seriously love to have freedom.. but i would be breaking my sister's heart.. She has been excitedly planing for our arrival since a few months ago.. Finding places to rent and setting aside money to buy furniture. I dont have any friends going to Perth and I'm honestly terrified of going there without any support. What if i face an emergency? My closes family member would be 4 hours away.

If i go to Melbourne, i would have to stay with my sister and it would be bloody awkward. I tired outing to her a few weeks back and she has regarded it as "a phase" which annoyed the hell out of me. I have friends in Melbourne and I have my sister to guide me along.


Honestly i dont know what i'll choose..
I dont know if my given freedom of choosing a University is an illusion..
Will i have the guts to stray from my planned route?..

3 months,
Till then,
Love,
Ck


You are in genting now.. The trip i was suppose to go with you, we would be cuddling by now.. I remember how happy i was when you invited me to go with you... I woke up depressed again.. Wondering if everything that had happened was just a dream..

80 : The Story

"Lets play hide and seek!", he said to me as we agreed to have lunch together the next day.
"Let's see how long it takes for u to catch me!", he playfully teased me. At that moment, i fell for him a little as he was so cutely childish.  That night i went to sleep with full curiosity and excitement.

The next day, i sat for an exam and at 10 i was free!

11am.  I look at my watch and silently mumbled to myself, "And so the hunt begins.." with a grind on my face. I started scouting the area for him, walking up and down the stair, passing block to block. 10 mins later, he was still no where in sight. At the point of almost giving up i found him. Stupid boy was having consultation and dint tell me! 

We went to a western restaurant nearby. Ate and chat, covering almost every topic a typical gay would cover, i shall cut the details.. but generally, I had so much fun!! About 2 hours in, we were ask if we could leave due to the lack of available tables. So we proceeded to popping my tutti fruitti virginity! haha, another hour of chit chat in tutti fruitti and he had to go. We walked back to the main campus, gave him a hug and i left. <3

Yea, i cut many details but that was the general "date"?.
Haha, the relationship is.. progressing?..
Really not sure what my next step will be.. I'm leaving to Australia next year and all.. :(

Dilemma,
Klex

35: Responsibility, Passion, and Opportunity.

If you were forced to forgo one between responsibility, passion, and opportunity, which would you have the heart to forgo?  Im at a state of dilemma.. Forgoing one seems to be the only thing that might solve this dilemma but i really don't have the heart to give up one..

What do you guys think? Or should I try my best and fight through the month, knowing there are many obstacles ahead which might even result in me having let go of all three?..
Im so confused!! Risk or no risk?..

Flash mob happening in sunway (25/6),
Klex :P