416 : A little something something.

There is no denying how much I have neglected writing in this little online journal of mine. Constantly having something to do, work, uni, dance etc, I can honestly say I'm mentally drained which leaves me with little to no provision to sit down and type out a story from my day. Heh.. Feels like I've become the boring monotonous person I've expected myself to become. Same routines everyday, see the same people literally everyday, cooking the same food everyday, where is the excitement?

I guess changing my laptop made me forget I had a blog most of the time. The little blogger icon is no longer bookmarked next to the usual Facebook or twitter icons anymore. Heck, it isn't even on my bookmark list anymore. Which reminds me I should really add it in now. 

So what have you guys been up to? Scrolling down the reading list only did I realise how much I have to catch up with in the blogger world. Seldom keep contact with Jboy and other bloggers as well which makes me actually feel foreign in this blogger world again. Only difference now is, do i have the time to slowly familiarise myself all over again?

I'm actually more open now. I really don't mind who knows about me and people don't mind about me either. Just looking back, I realise how wrong I am to be scared of coming out to people in fear of being judge. I even have straight guy friends asking me details of my relationship.. The world is more open and my mind should be more open as well. 

I've quit my job in the beginning of the year. Having no income coming in every week, I feel so vulnerable. Its just an odd feeling I can't describe. I have been so stingy with my money that I've actually refused to eat out with friends or chip in with presents for friends. All this lasted a while till a close friend of mine made me realise how much I was torturing myself. We were sitting under the stars during camp, being in the suburbs, the stars were nothing like the city's, each bright and significant in the sky. With the cold sea breeze, she handed me a can of Smirnoff she bought. I knew the price of one can: 40$ for 10 cans. She drank one and she gave everything else away (I had two.. :3). It was just so odd to me how she was so generous with money. What she told me just changed my mentality. She wasn't rich but she wasn't poor either, what her parents told her is the same as what my parents have always told me. Buy things to reward yourself once in a while. They earned the money and have constantly asked me to enjoy myself, when the time comes when I start working, I will pay them back for it. Seeing how she was happy with what ever she was doing made me realise how being so cheap is poison to myself.. 

Dance! If you have my Facebook you will see how dancing has been the only thing I've been doing. With no work to take up my time, dancing has overrun my life. Had performances last week and it was amazing. The amount of compliments I got just felt like hard work paid off. Even seniors messaged me and told me how proud they are of me. <3 

Dance, Dance, Dance, Dance?

The puppy issue?.. I don't know where we are now.. When we broke up the emptiness just consumed me to the point I couldn't even concentrate during dance. I dunno how but that stupid boy manage to wiggle himself back into my life even after being blocked from almost everything. The one thing I totally forgot to block, he messaged me from there.. Facepalm moment. Its rocky again.. I still don't trust him... I know there is a "but" in that sentence but I don't know what it is. Everyone that knows what happened scolded me for taking him back. All the "aiyoooo.. don't la.." and "Oii!! What is this?" I have been hearing from disapproving friends. Love them. So i guess I am taking a chance again. I hate to admit it but i honestly feel he will be the best thing that will EVER happen to me. Anyone out there to prove me wrong can always send me an email.. lol? 

So why am i writing these random stuff? 

Its my bloggie's birthday. Happy 3rd Birthday!

Grew so much with this blog. 

Till the next time,

Fucktastic loads of love,

Leonut

Ps. Birthday Gift : Found the hidden link to my dance video in this post? 

Can finally put a face to the name leonut eh? lol..

373 : Bloggie!

Happy Birthday my little blog.
Serving as a diary for 2 years, I grew to love the blogsphere and got somewhat addicted.
Sadly, occupied with work, dance, studies etc, I seldom have time to log in anymore..

Anyways, busy or not, here are the random few things I appreciate that makes my day.

1. Walking under the rain (Melbourne always have drizzles that feel like snow! If i make sense..)
2. PAYDAY
3. Holding a beloved's hand
4. A cuddle anytime of the day.
5. Feeling of a shirt getting tighter after a good chest workout
6. Feeling a full body of sweat after dance practice.
7. Exploring places, Melbourne has a lot of small streets that hold the nicest things.
8. Hug from friends, especially if they smell good. =3
9. Fried chicken
10. Wank after a long day.

I can go on forever.. But 10 for now.

Happy Birthday Ranting of the boy and a big thank you to who ever is reading this now. =D

Lots of love,
Leonut

366 : Happy Birthday Puppy!

People guessed puppy is called puppy cause :
"He sticks out his tongue"
"Puppy eyes"
"Fluffy and cute" or
"He likes doggy style"

But here is the reason why, 

There are a few reasons why and none of them involves him in liking the doggy style or even licking (okay maybe the licking). There is actually a list why he's my puppy.

1. He is cute, fluffy and cuddly. Just being able to wrap my arms around his waist and hug him as tightly I want to! He's exactly like a Pomeranian to me.

2. He is strong, protective and supportive. I feel so safe when I'm in his arms. These traits are like a Rottweiler. My personal bodyguard 

3. He is also kind and nice. Exactly like a Golden Retriever.

4. He is also noisy and loud at the same time. He blabs all day long without getting tired just like a chihuahua. He never shuts up.

That basically sums up why he's my puppy. He's fluffy at the right places which makes him so huggable, he's protective and nice at the same time and his noise just brings joyful sounds to my life.

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Truth be told, that was written by puppy. Forced him to write this cause he wanted a more romantic reason. Hehe. I can say most of those are true. I freaking miss hugging and cuddling him. He is always damn supportive to me, nice and kind to me even though i'm in a bad mood, and he is very, very loud (Sings to me most of the time XD).

Anyways.. The real reason why i call him puppy is short and sweet.

I called him a bitch and he didn't like it so i cushion it by calling him puppy..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUPPY!! 

Bring you makan ice cream again soon! 

Love you lots!

Leonut

280: Happy Birthday Mama?

Today is my mama's 50+++ birthday.
I shall be a good son to not reveal her age.. Sensitive age issues with women..

So for the past few year we would usually buy a package from RedRibbonDays. A nice japanese dinner for 2 and all. But this year we ran out of nice packages to buy.

My sister and i decided on sending them on a cruise.. Little pricey but why not? It would be just an awesome experience since they never experienced the sea before. Unfortunately mum found out and she is utterly convinced that a ship, no matter how big.. Is a floating death trap.. Even my dad couldn't convinced her to go..

So we are kinda out of ideas.. I wanted to buy the same duck cushion i have for her but its not available online..

Mum says "as long as you are a good son, study hard and don't do drugs that's the best birthday gift you can get for me."
Cliche much mama?

So.. Any ideas on a nice gift for my mum?..

Leonut

p.s. Was checking out "Royal Caribean Cruise". There is a 10 day package that starts from singapore to shanghai, stopping in vietnam, hongkong, japan and korea which looks absolutely awesome.  I wana go..
Been for one Royal Caribean Cruise before and it was a really cool experienced. Should try it one day. =D

266 : 2 Types of Parties

Been so busy these few days that i hardly even spend time at home besides sleeping anymore..
Had two parties last week, a drunk party & games party.

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The drunk party was spontaneous.
After a club meeting on a thursday evening, the committee members went to have dinner together (Just note that the brunch manager of the Papparich i went to looks like Jaychau but hotter.. Will get a pic one day). After the dinner the president decided it would be a good idea to have a drinking session at his place on a Thursday night and surprisingly, class or no class on the next day, a lot of us followed up with his plan.

Bought liquor from the local store and the drinking games started.
First girl to K.O, she took out her phone and started showing people pictures of her cat, domokun and fish, which someone proceeded to ask her had she ate her fish for breakfast, her reply, "Not Yet".
First time getting tipsy, everything seemed like a good idea.. The xbox wasn't loading and i was up front pressing the "continue" button on the TV screen thinking it was touch screen.. Followed up with replying group whatsapp messages and tipsy texting to someone.. I'm sorry to the guy that received my text... :(

Everyone did stupid things and only one person vomited..
Compared to the Christmas Party last year, this was seem so mild.. Lol

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Apparently another group of friends planned a buffet dinner and party for my friend's birthday on Saturday during my tipsy session and i didn't remember reading anything..

Saturday itself someone wrote the attendance list on whatsapp and i went "O.o.. am i suppose to be somewhere right now..?".. And i had to be at the casino for dinner in 30 mins.. When i met new people they were "so you the drunk guy that texted all those stuff.." Embarrassing..

Rush to iron my shirt and made it on time.
After dinner, i watched my friends lose or gain money, then we went to my friend's house at 10pm.

Played Charades. I was so mean, we made M do all the funniest actions for his team members to guess, 'Kim possible' and 'Fergelicous'

Imagine a really muscular guy putting a sharp boobs gesture on his chest over and over a gain trying to imitate Kim Possible's sharp boobs or trying to make people guess her song 'call me beep me if you want to reach me', just to have everyone scream "CALL ME MAYBE??"..
We then made him snap his finger and act all sexy with "Fegelicious"..

Can't find those moves anywhere else but Cherades..  lol

Ended the party with 3 hours of Mafia till 4am.. Went back to the casino for drinks and then proceeded home..
Got screamed at by drunks on my way home, scary shit but i guess that's what i get for walking back alone at 4 something.. Thank god they weren't hostile..

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Anyways, just two really differnt types of party i went to.
Prefer to be at the second one.. everyone was playing games and laughing together.
Quality time with friends. =D

Happy Monday Blues
Love,
Leonut

LOVE YOU LCW!!

260

I know I'm going to sound like a sore loser..
But just once i really want to celebrate my birthday with friends..

Every year and everyday i see people posting pictures of birthday parties they get on their birthdays,
or at least going for outings and dinner with friends..
Just once i really want to have something like that..

This year on my birthday, i didn't even get to see anyone of the people i love..
I didn't get a wish from the guy i gave my heart to,
nor any presents..

Just like that, at the end of the day, without friends or family,
I looked to my twin brother and said,
"There goes our special day.. Happy birthday bro.."
and it was over..
I understood the little smile he gave me,
expressing how pathetic our birthdays were..

Yea, i know.
I'm not popular, I'm not good looking, I don't have close friends..
Maybe that's just my life..
I'm just a whining baby..
I sound so stupid..

Enjoy your birthdays everyone.
Leonut.

213 : 31 556 926 ticking seconds

Exactly one year ago, a naive little young boy decided to sign up for blogger,
Ignorant to the gay world, he decided to start a plu blog,
Lying on his living room floor,
The puzzled boy struggle to answer 2 questions :'Blog Url'? 'Blog Title'?
He decided to use the term "Parkinreverse" as a url, since its catchy, after watching a youtube video. And a friend told him "thanks for letting me RANT to you.". Tadahh! "Ranting of the Boy." was born.
Typing out his first post titled "friendship or truth" after being constantly nudge by a guy he fancied, in fear he will lost a friend if he told the truth.
Within that year, he came out to him and they were still close.

Man.. i grew so much in a year!
I learned so much,
how people act, how people can change, how to stay strong, to forgive and never hold love grudges, and to be more matured in mind.

Little history on why i started blogging.
The first blog i started reading was the blog of Simon Lover, of course for the same reason most people read his blog. For the kinky adventures he has and the drool stimulating pictures he posted. Checking everyday for his next update, and always impatient for the next post. But soon, I found the blogs of Clayden and Tuls. I was genuinely jealous of the love stories they posted daily, wishing i would get my chance one day, to have someone to share my day with, to have little stories to tell and immortalize in writing form..  And so the idea of starting a blog slowly grew and months later i actually started one. I started posting the little problems i had and stories i had to tell, then it lead to heart breaks and recovery. I am still patiently waiting for the time i will have someone to share little stories with.. In the mean time, i shall remain hopeful.

I am really glad i started this blog. I met so many people from blogging.
Some that i even grew close to and many that helped me through hard times.
You know who you are!

Hope everyone will have a good day today.
Happy Birthday my dear blog!
And,
Happy Birthday to my beloved Sister!

Lots of love,
LeoNut!
08.05.2012

81 : Happy Birthday!

Lady Gaga CD, painfully wrapped. Lol

Happy Birthday Dear!!
I feel bad that we havent been able to build anything sentimental for me to get you something really personal, its only been one week only. >.<
Anyways, despite what happened in the morning, i hope you can have a wonderful birthday!
See you tomorrow dear!!
Love you!!

Love,
Ckay