246 : Words

If you pay attention to people's speech patterns, and break down their words, you can actually can read what they are thinking at the moment.

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L : I thought I actually mean something to you
B : You did...
L : Exactly.. past tense.. I don't anymore..
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C : You broke something again??
L : What do you mean 'again'? I didn't break anything before!
C : But.. i thought...
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S : Haha, heart breaker!! Go around breaking people's hearts. Come la, break
     mine! hahaha
L : WTF??
S : My turn what.. lol =P
L : FUCK YOU!!
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For the first 2 i guess its just how people don't really think about their choice of words during the heat of the moment. First one kinda hurt when that person told me that.. lol, i did?..
3rd one was a supposedly a joke but the fact that the thought actually passed his mind to be made a joke.. Still hurt.

Choose your words carefully!
Leonut

218 : Flirtationship.

Flirtationship  Noun [flurt-tee-shuhn-ship]

1. A relationship where both individuals flirt obsessively but nothing will happen between them.
2. More then friendship, less then relationship.
   

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Flirtationship. Anyone in one currently?
I am in a flirtationship with someone. Pinky promises, playing rock paper scissors and a good night kiss before sleeping everyday, all over skype. Yup, he is in Malaysia. That i really don't mind. We just flirt and tease(non sexual) each other alot. I'm clearly not expecting anything to happen between us currently but maybe when i get back to Malaysia things might unfold.

In the mean time. Someone has been trying really hard to persuade me to say yes to him. I don't know what he sees in me that made him hold on like this. As if you think 2 rejections would be enough. He only met me over facebook too! But anyways, he made an agreement with me. I will never ask him to stop or go away, he can try his best to persuade me but i don't have to acknowledge his persuasion methods. When he gets tired, he will move on or the other way round..

I think i just gave someone rights to flirt..

He was talking to me yesterday and i nearly did something that made me wonder what have i become.. I nearly flirted with him. I really have no idea what I am doing these few days. Would the feeling of exile and loneliness from this foreign land actually make me play with his heart? No. I will never do such things.

There is a thin line between loving someone for that person and loving due to loneliness. And i better get myself together before i become the one thing i hate the most.

Love,
Leonut.

Finally got half my wings! Passed up all my assignments for the semester. Another half will be after my exams.. haha!  Realize i missed alot of interesting blog posts for the pass week... Have a good tuesday!

165 : Gayzoned?

Everyone seems to be using the term Friendzoned now, thanks to a certain popular website...
But what do you call a gay person who fell for a straight guy? Shall we make up a name for this?
Gayzoned?

I've talked about this guy named S before, since he is reoccurring on my blog, I shall give him a proper name, Sam.

While back ago, I fell for Sam but of course him being straight I kinda let go pretty quickly. Sam is a really fun type of guy, sporting in his own unique way, making him really cute, not to mention he does have looks and the body.. The bloody hot lean muscular body..

Anyways, I just wanted to ask you guys, have you been gayzoned before??

In my case, Sam really gayzoned me.. Not to say I love him in a relationship way but he is the type of person that makes me feel happy when i am around him. Always cracking jokes and all to me. He tells me all his problems and vice versa. I've told him i am gay and he is still so cool about it. He still hugs me when he sees me, and he does the stupiest actions to entertain me.. Example, when i was skyping him, he, being shirtless decided to show me how he can flex his pecs and make them dance.. hot...   Nice to have a friend which is so cool about who i am la.. Not many straight guys accept the "I'm gay" sentence very well..

This tend to lead me being bias towards him. He joined a dancing competition a few days ago. Before I left to Australia, i used to pull him aside from everyone else in the dance studio and gave him dance techniques and pointers so he would win.. and he did.. First place. Proud of him.

So in a way, Sam gayzoned me. I kinda always love him in a way. If he was gay i would tackle him already.

I've asked a Powerful blogger if he would turn Sam gay already. Hopefully he can la.. Or not i will go find a bomoh maybe?..

So my question, Have you guys been gayzoned before? Or any better names for "gayzoned"? We shall make it an official term.

Love,
Leo

26: Words hurt.

If i were to throw a brick at you and said "haha, you know i love you!", how would you feel?
Similarly, when someone tells you "You look so gay la", especially a close friend, would you feel hurt?..
Of course, he is right about the gay part, but STILL!! Telling me "haha, you know i love you!" doesn't really help either.