Friday, 4 January 2013

340 : i. m. y

That night, the last skype call we had..
I told you i had something to talk to you about and you instantly knew where the conversation was heading..

The moment you told me "i miss you", it struck me..
It stuck me that this feeling of miss and deprivation will never go away.
It will never be satisfied and the warmth of your hug can't be felt through the screen.
That we both have to bare this distress feeling for another year without being quenched..

New years day i was excited you were finally back..
I could skype you again!
Second I got home around 3am, I turned on skype, restless and eager to talk to you again, but you weren't on..
Waited till 5am but you didn't reply..
Sucky way to start the year.. :(

I'm just scared..
Did i make a mistake that day we stopped skyping?...

I miss you...
And i'm sorry...

Should be flying by the time you read this..
Talk to you in a week..
Love,
Leonut
Two weddings and a funeral. Can you hug me like this when we meet?.. 

Written on 02-01-2013

21 comments:

  1. Going cold turkey is very difficult indeed.

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    1. Haha, cold turkey taste like cardboard.. ><!

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  2. Take it easy and don't think too much first.

    Love the scene, was supposed to download it long time ago..xD

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    1. Watch it! Its damn nice! One of the nicest gay theme one i had watched in a long time. =D

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  3. is that who i think it is?

    and the gif, oh so so cute!

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    1. Lol, who do you think it is? =P Exam over?

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  4. the mind is an interesting and powerful thing ya? makes you happy and makes you worry no f*-ing end... take it easy, i am sure there is a reason for him not being online.

    and oooo, the gif is v nice!

    take care leonut.

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    1. yea, powerful, interesting and yet scary... lol.

      You take care too!

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  5. Don't think so much, enjoy your holidays first!!

    ME SO JELLY :P

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  6. Who is this guy, that you are missing him so badly ?

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    1. Curious to know too.. *GOSSIP GOSSIP*

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    2. Who you all talking about?... COnfuse dy.. lol

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  7. Anyway... just be calm and wait it out. Answers will always appear. You Take care aight?

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  8. you post is soooo cryptic :|

    where are you flying off to? back down under?

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    1. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?..

      Nah, just for holiday. =D

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