Sunday, 6 May 2012

212 : Family?

Family, cousins, aunts and uncles.
We are suppose to be close even though we are an extended family.

FUCKING HECK NO!!


All those assholes just love to come and suck what ever benefits they can get from my parents.
Want to come up to Malaysia from Singapore?
Sure, Who needs a hotel, just stay at my home and my room.
That, i don't mind but when you choose the most expensive restaurant to eat dinner, order suckling pig, abalone and every fucking expensive thing on the menu and expect my dad to pay? FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!!  That few thousand ringgit spend on feeling your stomach for one dinner only (Not to mention the few thousand for your other meals) might be nothing to you but my parents aren't working and my other siblings and I are in Melbourne. You are from Singapore, your currency is already so powerful and you make my parents pay.

Being here, i've already became damn stingy with money. Everything here is x3 the price. Everyone goes, "Dont convert la, just buy what ever you want". Fuck you! You don't know the financial burden i would incur if spend like i am in Malaysia, it wouldn't be right, those aren't my money, its my parents. If i work here and earned local currency, that would be another story.

Another stupid ass is my uncle.
Been leeching of my parents since beginning of time. Dad had to pay for almost everything, including his wedding. Then he just decided to back stab my dad few years ago and made his way with pockets full of money. The damn house you are staying in its not even yours, its my sisters. And do you pay rent? No. Living for free. And when my mum ask for 1k rent a month, you conveniently decided to ignore her. Its only 1k!! Don't fucking lie that you dont have money, you need to pay for your child's fees and blah blah blah. If you are really are that financially constraint, your son wont be posting'

"Yay, dad is going to buy me a new car!"
"Tequila shots! Awesome night tonight!"
"Should i buy a new phone?"
"Going clubbing again today!"

Yea, your child's fees huh?
Each year at chinese new year they would come for the reunion dinner, they would just take all the expensive food they can find, then leave the rest. Chicken, fish and vegetables will always have lots of remainder. Seafood however. Always finished by them. A thank you after dinner every year? Never.
My mum spends a few days preparing and cooking everything and she doesnt even get a thank you. She works so hard at it and you can see how stress she is about it, everyday going to the market and going around buying things for the dinner. You can see how tired she is... :(

Conclusion is, my dad's side of the family are all money sucking assholes.
They come and suck as much money as they can before leaving everytime.

And for god's sake. Cant you guys ever say a word of "Thank you" to my parents when you decided to use their money?

Fuck you!!

When the time comes, My sister and I will claim back what ever is rightfully my parent's for them. Just you wait!!

Saturday, 5 May 2012

211 : Sad Songs

Sad songs.
They are there for a reason.

A while back i believed sad songs just pulls you further into a dark hole you have fallen into.
Some people believe that when you are feeling down, you should listen to your favourite songs or rather upbeat songs to bring you out of the depression. That is true to some extent but it brought a horrible side effect, I can never listen to that song anymore.

Don't get me wrong i still love that song but each time i listen to that song it reminds me of a memory i do not wish to remember. Listening to it on repeat almost every moment made me feel better, pumped up and hyped up back then. But now, every beat, tune or lyrics was just infused to that hurtful memory that it permanently changed the mood of that song to me.

So anyways, sad songs are there for a reason. Listen to them when you are feeling down. Thousands of sad songs in the world and there are almost one for each situation ; Broke up but still love each other, One sided break up, I want you back, I hate you for what you did, You cheated on me, etc. Just have to find the right song. Listen to it all you want, it somehow makes you feel like you aren't alone and when the time comes, you will stand up and walk proudly again, leaving the song behind too.

Imagine you go clubbing and the upbeat song you use to clear your depression plays, instant depression.

So use that sad song.

Love,
Leo

Friday, 4 May 2012

210 : A Poem.

Finger swirls like a violin,
Cold and easy,
the touch on the skin.

Follow the road made by nature past,
The little trail the snail had pass,
Deeper down that forest path,
To be blocked by a rubber's wrath.
With a little force, a full hand of five,
Can't go over so you'll just have to dive,
The warm place scared and "pure",
You just can't help but to take a tour.

Rustling, and searching,
The deeper you go,
To find the treasure,
No no, not gold,
But something more,
Alive with a warmth,
With blood rushing through,
A familiar shape forms.

With a throbbing one of your own,
You grabbed the treasure like you're in the zone,
And all the responds is a soft, long,
Moan..

LeoNut..
DAMN I'M HORNY!
RAWR!~

209 : Ready?

Am I ready?
To let someone take my heart again?

To the guy that started calling me "teddy bear", heck no.

But that guy that started wishing me good morning and good nights..
I know he isn't a good guy..
But...
Hm...

I am that unstable huh?..
Lol...

Everyone that ever ever show interest in me only had interest for a short period of time..
1 month at most..
lol..
Soon la.. Will be ignored as everyone else.

Thursday, 3 May 2012

208 : Breathless!

A friend of mine recently discuss about how annoying is it for a person to not use any punctuations when writing a paragraph it makes the reader just reads and they can't stop reading out of an impulse like now i don't think you can stop reading because you are waiting for a fullstop or a comma to catch your breath i found it really funny how everyone just reads the paragraph without stopping and at one point they have a inner battle with themselves to stop reading or continue i myself had that feeling even when reading what i have typed out anyways this is just something interesting to me certainly beats the hwo poelpe hvae teh atiilby to raed wrdos wtih jumlbe up ahelabepts anyways isn't this post simply

Breathtaking?

Love,
Leonut.  :P

Update!
In. Addition. To. Removing. Punctuations,. Adding. FullStops. At. Every. Word. Increases. The. Time. Taken For. Everyone. To. Read. A. Short. Sentence. Too!. Quite. Funny. and. Fun. Eh?.

Wednesday, 2 May 2012

207 : Conversations

How not to start a conversation.

"Hey.. Top or bottom?"

"Horny?"

"You single?"

"Want to have sex?"

"Can you be my boyfriend?"

"You make me horny"

If this was grindr or jack'd, fine, you are excuse. But on places like facebook?
Seriously??
If you can calm your dick and think about it for a while, facebook and emails aren't medias to satisfy your desperate self..

Have some self pride to cover your desperateness please.
At least get to know that person first..

Haihyohh...
Leonut.

Tuesday, 1 May 2012

206 : The awkward gap

First time meeting someone online is always awkward for me.
I never seem to be able to get the conversation rolling no matter what and i always always comes out as me being shallow and unfriendly.

That i am okay with. As i get to know people more i usually redeem myself, earning the title of talkative to most people(time may wary to each individual). But there is one awkward moment that i can never seem to overcome.
I have no idea why but this has been happening to me a lot lately. The moment i met someone online, i would exchange a few words before something would come up, going out for dinner for example, a movie, or grocery shopping, which has all happened before.

Right after I'm back i feel like it would be awkward to continue the conversation. The few words exchanged before hand is insufficient to start a conversation topic, thus killing the chances of a friendship ever sparking.

Its like you are trying to start a fire with spark-rocks, the second you get ember you had to go attend something else and when you get back, the ember has already burned all the dry wood through, leaving you with nothing to burn and no fire!! The horror!

Another awkward moment is when the other party just stops replying.. And you don't know to change the topic or too just let the conversation end..

I shall call it the awkward gap.

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Awkward Gap  adjective  [awk-werd gap] (Leonut's definition)
  1. The moment a conversation between two individual is too awkward to be continued by the lack of conversation topics 
  2. The prolonged period of time between the first conversation and the follow up conversation that will never be started due to the gap itself.
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AWKWARD TURTLE!~

My favourite hand gesture to use. Especially around my friend's parents or when i am a 3rd party to a couple..  lol..

Do you guys experience the awkward gap like i do?..

Love,
LeoNUT