325 : Kids, Fragile Glass and other scary things.

Confession : I have an extreme mix feelings of hate and fear towards kids. 

Yes. I'm weird like that but honestly i really don't like being in the presence of children, typically kids below 6 years young. 

They are so fragile! Worst than handling thin glass. It's like if they trip and fall they might die.. or worst.. start crying.. Just hearing the banshee screech of unsatisfaction and attention just sends me in a state of panic, I can never tell what they want or what they like. I'm just stereotypical, happy faces or soft toys, and if that doesn't work, go find Mama. 

Another thing is they absorb everything! Did you guys watch Meet The Fockers? The baby's first words were "Asshole". A similar thing happened to me once. I was talking to a friend when I swore. Unknowingly, my dance teachers' daughter wondered behind us and over heard it. She then proceeded to repeat it the way she registered the taboo word : Fourk. The second we heard it we turned around, face changed and went "oh.. my.. god.. no no no no no no no no no, not fourk! Frog! Frog right?? Frog jumping around! Froggy! Froggy". Should see our faces when she said "no, FOURK!". Took us 5 minutes of repeated jumping followed by the word "frog" to convince her it was frog.. NEVER AGAIN! Curse you sponge brain!!

I swore at a baby once.. We were eating in a restaurant where the tables were separated by a short partition. My sister went "Eh.. eh.. turn around and see." 

I turned around and screamed :"FUCK!!!!!" I was literally few inches from this freaky baby climbing the partition. His eyes were freaking huge and staring right at me. I was so freaking scared i could feel my heart pounding. I usually don't swear around little kids, but swearing at a baby, i felt terrible. 

I don't care what you guys say.. This was the scariest thing ever..

Another thing is their protective parents. When anything goes wrong, no matter is it their child's fault or yours, its YOURS!! There was this young girl, holding her dad's hand walking in front of me. She kept turning around and staring at me with this bitchy look while walking. Around the 5th time she turn around, i was so annoyed at her, I gave her the "wtf do you want" look. I was wearing a plain shirt, there was nothing special. She got pissed off and tugged on her dad's hand and complain. Like the hell.. Anyyways, when they slowed down so she could "complain", i just overtook them and walked away. SAVED!

Don't get my wrong. I love kids, the nice quiet intelligent onces, not the playful spoiled annoying brats. Seeing parents put an ipad in front of their kids to entertain and distract them when they go out for dinner, i'm really worried on how the next generation of tablet and Smartphone kids will grow up to become.

When I get my own children however, I'm gonna be that protective irrational bitch too i guess. And if i don't get my own children, I'm gonna spoil and make my sister's children fat.. =P

In the mean time, I'm gonna smile and act happy around kids.. Don't wanna be that guy that scars them for life...

Happy Sunday!
Leonut

324 : You.

You.
You are the guy i will actually admit I fell for after penguin.
The person i once look forward to talking to every day and night.

But before any proper feelings could develop, you shot me down. You told me "Why? Fell for me dy?".
Just that sentence made me feel like crap. Like i was that desperate little boy going after you..
Maybe i was? I started trying to kill off the feelings yet we still talk often.

We always sounded excited when we planned to meet, at least i was.

First time we plan to meet up.
I was on my way to meet you after uni. My train ticket was already validated since I took the train to uni and i was quite excited to finally meet you after talking about it the day before. I messaged you confirming everything before I boarded the train and you told me you had to cancel since you were busy..

The next time we planned to have dinner together, You agreed you can confirm dinner plans before 6.. I messaged you to confirm and you only replied at 7 something, by which i was already home eating dinner since it felt like you didn't want to confirm it..

Right after we both finished our exams I told you i was free on Friday, you told me you will let me know. The whole exam period you talked to me and sounded excited to finally have a chance to meet.. The whole Thursday and Friday I kept checking my phone for a confirmation reply.. Nothing...

Stood up 3 times..

It sucks how i feel damn stupid yet i'm not angry at all. Could be my own imagination of your affection towards me.
I'm often stood up but coming from you, it just hurt..

Stupid for me to be expecting anything right? You clearly told me no..
People said mean things about you but i know you aren't. You are a really nice loveable person which might just be the reason i fell..

Little more than a week till our paths will never have a chance to cross again and with that said i don't think we will meet at all.. Just.. not meant to be..

Like a friend said, I really give up finding someone. Countless times where I ever really love, I would be left broken while the other walks around undented.. It fucking sucks, it feels like there is something majorly wrong with me, like i'm really meant to be alone.. There must be something about me that kills their emotions, people don't tell you they like/love you and just take it back the next day right? Or do they?..
Nonetheless, I'm pathetic..

You found me through this blog, i wonder would you ever read this..
Missed chance.
Your banana boy,
Leonut. =(

323 : Picture secrets and others

Lol, exactly how i take most my pictures...
The secret of the friendless and lonely is out!

His accent is just damn cool though.. Lol


Anyways, here are a few more videos that left me laughing.

Ish.. Such a busy week to come before i head to the airport.
Happy Sunday!

Leonut

322 : Too high expectations?

"Leonut, your expectations are too high There are so many guys in Australia. You sure you can't find one?"

The question is, is there such thing as having a too high expectation?

I mean you are picking someone that you are suppose to love unconditionally throughout your whole life, are you suppose to just pick anyone with no expectations whatsoever for the future?..

Its just something that a lot of people have said that and i'm just wondering if its true.

Anyways, people say people you find attractive and people you date are two different type of people as i've been told..

This post is practically mindless rambling. Damn tired from work and being scolded by my head bitch manager doesn't help either.

Ultimately maybe this is an issue of the "reacher and settler" as HIMYM mentioned where a "reacher" is a person who reaches beyond their level of beauty and a "settler" a person who settles for someone below their level of beauty.

Are you a reacher or a settler?

I'm reaching for the stars million lightyears away. Gonna die not even close to the stars. lol..

Leonut

321 : Sleep

Ironically the black one is the fat one.. 

Flipping and tossing, I finally found a position i was comfortable.

One hand under my neck and the other hugging on to me, it was nice to be cuddling in bed yet the only thing i could think about was his arm falling asleep under me and him not moving his arm in-case it would ruin the 'moment'.

Trying to fall alseep on an unfamiliar bed seemed impossible.

Then it hit me..
I can't fall asleep without music..
Its been almost a year I put on a playlist to sleep everyday. Either Christina Perri, Igrid Michealson, The Script, The Wanted, Pink etc..
I was so tempted to turn on music the whole night..
I just hate the unbearable sound of the screeching ringing in my ears in the dead silence.

Waking up in someones arms... :)

I shall call him here Jun from now on.

Leonut

320 : I'm not stupid

I'm not stupid my dear colleagues.
Just because i present myself as a hyper and playful person doesn't mean what ever i say is senseless and not important.
As a matter of fact it is the other way around.

I'm stupid in your eyes just because i don't talk about the senseless crap you guys talk about?
Get a life.
Broaden your knowledge about the world and be more open minded about the things you don't know.
Just because your small feeble narrow brain of yours can't comprehend simple general knowledge i talk about doesn't make me the stupid laughing stalk in the whole conversation.
Oh no my dear colleagues.. never.

Like a simple German dish called the Pork Knuckle. Yes, it is the knuckle of a swine. People eat that. The moment i was laughed at for eating a so call "weird and disgusting" thing just made me realize how dumb all you guys are.

An arm full of tattoos is call a tattoo sleeve. Use its proper name rather then using 5 sentences that could be replaced with one simple common word. Telling me "yea, whatever, the arm tattoo things"? Yup, my respect for all of you just dropped even lower.

Been 4 months since i started working with you guys and with each passing day i worked with you all, it brought me closer to the realization that the whole group of you are just plain dumb. I'm happy i have reduced my work shifts every week yet somewhat sad to see the whole group of you "popular" kids rubbing your stupidity onto others, dumbing them down to your level.

I do prefer to sit by myself far from your lunch table because i find it completely pointless to talk to you all. Listening to you guys talk about how you get piss drunk everyday and your "adventures" to get home in your intoxicated state every night doesn't amuse me.

Don't tease and call me anti-social.

I choose not to be laughed at every word i say. Taking yesterday as another example, you guys were talking about cartilage piercings and I was laughed at for saying "industrial piercing" because non of them heard of it before. Yes dumb fucks, there are such things.

Knowledge is power, not a big mouth and narrow brain.
THINK before talking. Impression on people is key to a success.
As i dig a hole and bury my respect for you guys 6 feet under, I'm happy you guys are such a close gang knowing monkeys travel in packs.

Till the head chimp backstabs you all dumb ignorant fucks,
Lots of Love,
Leonut :)

319 : 2 faced

"Don't get too closed to her, she is going to back stab you and everyone she is close to when she needs to. Be careful"

My heart stopped when i heard a senior told me that.
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.
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I KNEW IT!! My manager is the evil warbitch of the underworld that sells people's souls!!

The moment I met my manager I could sense something off about her. The always happy helpful person she is seems unnatural. I knew she was heartless in someway, but i just didn't know how.

I was raised this way.
To be very careful with people, to analyze people and trust only those safe to trust and yesterday, I had the conformation I needed about my manager.

Everyone else seems to be damn close to her. They go out for drinks and clubs with her on a weekly if not daily basis and they tell her everything which just leads to me drifting away from them.
Yes it could be me just being paranoid but you can't be too careful right?
The senior I talked to don't work where i do anymore claiming she had some "issues". I'm willing to bet my hat that my manager back stabbed and got her fired..

So now its just come in, get my work done and leave.

Discoveries of people's 2 face-ness as the awesome Jboy has discovered as well..

Be careful of people you meet!
Leonut