338 : Closed!

Being right behind the crowded lift, he's hand creeped over. Slowly but confidently, his pinky grabbed mine and with one smooth move, he held my hand. We said nothing but simply enjoyed the brief "private" moment between floors, secretly praying nobody turn around.

I can honestly say that the highlight of the year was the beginning.
But moments don't last forever sadly.

Looking back, I changed so much this year.
I'm no longer the naive boy that allowed people to play emotionally anymore.
I learned being a goodie two shoes won't get you anywhere but pushed around.
That you can't put all your eggs in one basket, and the one that hurts you the most are the one closest to you.

This year i lost myself completely, found it back and lost it again..
I can say i'm quite lost where my life is heading now..

I lost my love and some things i can never gain back.
I gained a lot of new experiences, gained new friends as well as got closer to others.

Funny thing is after a year i still can't figure out why i yearn for a relationship so badly. No one died of loneliness before right?? At least not anyone my age i'm sure.

So in a few hours time, i'm closing this book of memories and leaving it behind. Taking only the lessons i need to the future years.

See you guys next year?

I loved you, I miss you,
Leonut.