Monday, 31 December 2012

338 : Closed!

Being right behind the crowded lift, he's hand creeped over. Slowly but confidently, his pinky grabbed mine and with one smooth move, he held my hand. We said nothing but simply enjoyed the brief "private" moment between floors, secretly praying nobody turn around.

I can honestly say that the highlight of the year was the beginning.
But moments don't last forever sadly.

Looking back, I changed so much this year.
I'm no longer the naive boy that allowed people to play emotionally anymore.
I learned being a goodie two shoes won't get you anywhere but pushed around.
That you can't put all your eggs in one basket, and the one that hurts you the most are the one closest to you.

This year i lost myself completely, found it back and lost it again..
I can say i'm quite lost where my life is heading now..

I lost my love and some things i can never gain back.
I gained a lot of new experiences, gained new friends as well as got closer to others.

Funny thing is after a year i still can't figure out why i yearn for a relationship so badly. No one died of loneliness before right?? At least not anyone my age i'm sure.

So in a few hours time, i'm closing this book of memories and leaving it behind. Taking only the lessons i need to the future years.

See you guys next year?

I loved you, I miss you,
Leonut.

20 comments:

  1. Time to start new wonderful and adventurous chapter of life!!! ; )

    Wish you have a Happy and Blessed New Year!! =D

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  2. wait so you ARE still writing.

    RIGHT??!!!

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    1. Left!

      haha, yea. Gonna write. :D

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  3. to a better u .. and also me ..:)
    happy new year :)

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    1. To the both of us! Happy New Year!

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  4. Yup, one egg at a time in the womb.

    Oops...

    Hehe, Happy 2013 New Year to you !!!

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    1. One egg at the time in the womb?? Apa tu??
      So random ni! hahaha, Happy New Year!

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  5. Happy New Year nut~

    =D

    Its gonna be good this year =)

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    1. You sure ah?.. Scary to think about it. lol
      Happy New Year!

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  6. That is a good start. May 2013 be a pleasant and maybe fruitful year for you. You have a strong year aight?... Happy new year.

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  7. U had a great year, with fun from the good time and lesson from bad one.

    Wishing that 2013 will be kinder and more generous to u, Leo Nut =)

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    1. Thank you babe!
      Hopefully the year will for the both of us.. ><

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  8. happy new year!! for some strange reason i've been trying to remember your previous blogger name and that made me realize that i've known you here for quite a while now (:

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    1. Lol, why the sudden urge to recall?..
      Yea wei! Been ages!
      Happy New Year!

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  9. New memories await in 2013 ;)

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