I find myself deeply exhaling these days..
A disappointment i feel about myself.
A few dates with no hope and no expectations and i fell..
I fell for him.. hard..
Its pathetic.. to fall for someone that doesn't feel the same way..
Knowing you will never become his first 3 priority when he is always in your mind..
Everyday you wake up he would be the first in your mind.. You wonder if he is awake..
You go to sleep wondering how was his day.. and if he once thought about you throughout his day..
You freaking miss him..
You constantly feel down, depressed even..
You want to invite him out, but you are terrified...
He has his own friends..
Don't think he wants your company anyways..
He seldom messages you.. Tweets you or build any form of communication with you..
Which just adds to the depression..
Just waiting for him to invite you out..
Damn this sucks... this freaking sucks..