Wednesday 1 February 2012

149 : Rants

I find myself deeply exhaling these days..
A disappointment i feel about myself.

A few dates with no hope and no expectations and i fell..
I fell for him.. hard..

Its pathetic.. to fall for someone that doesn't feel the same way..
Knowing you will never become his first 3 priority when he is always in your mind..
Everyday you wake up he would be the first in your mind.. You wonder if he is awake..
You go to sleep wondering how was his day.. and if he once thought about you throughout his day..
You freaking miss him..
You constantly feel down, depressed even..

You want to invite him out, but you are terrified...
He has his own friends..
Don't think he wants your company anyways..
He seldom messages you.. Tweets you or build any form of communication with you..
Which just adds to the depression..
Just waiting for him to invite you out..

Damn this sucks... this freaking sucks..

21 comments:

  1. I understand that feeling well...going through it at that moment >_<

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    1. hugs.. We both go through it together.. ><

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  2. Why don't you ask him out instead of you waiting ?

    ;)

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    1. :( youre leaving dah sayang....

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    2. how to like this comment le,

      you're leaving CK, it's gonna be years not just a month or two

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    3. I know.. ish! Dont care already. Going to enjoy myself instead of emoing. =D

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    4. Jempol ibu jari sudah :D

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  3. I agree with Chen Xing, why don't you ask him out? *hug*

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    1. Cause we dont have time already.. Leaving real soon.. ><

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  4. u dont need to be together with someone to have a relationship with them. not being together doesn't mean the end of a relationship. it's just a phase of the relationship when you guys are just friends. if it's meant to be someday you will get the chance. if you move on by then then hurrah! not a bad thing either.

    Hugs.

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    1. Thanks so much! Yea.. Hope he will be there when i get back..

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  5. got crush with someone ? Me too, this happened to me for too many times that now I don't really open my heart simply to anyone. But anyway, if you do really like him, instead of hoping him to express it, why don't you make the first step ? Think about it dude ^^

    Hugs.

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    1. Yea, im starting to think i should not open my heart so easily anymore.. Will see how it goes and will i make the first step..

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  6. understand how you feel... been through that and still going through at the moment..

    just be strong... :)

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  7. you want it, go for it. especially when you have a vibes this is the one.

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    1. Thanks! Will let you know how it goes.. ><

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  8. Just got to read this...totally understand the feeling. Well, seems like you've felt better already following your latest post. *HUGS*

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  9. Hope you are feeling better by now. :)
    whatever decision you made, as long as you are happy. :))

    I have had this tendency to fall for the wrong person. And yeap, it sux to the max... ><

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