Its really weird how life works..
How things fall in place as if its planned by the little forces existing around us.
On my way home from university yesterday, a sudden cloud of sadness just hovered over my head. Memories of penguin just flowed into my mind and occupied every thought. The more i recalled the thicker the cloud grew and feelings within me stirred.. I really thought I okay, I haven't thought about penguin for almost a week before this. When i got home, "I Miss You" by Blink-182 played on my laptop and tears just started flowing... I missed the times we went out together, the times we held hands, the times we shared.. Peculiarly, the feelings just left as fast as it came.. Within a few minutes, i felt fine and normal. My day went on as usual.
As night came however.. something happened..
"Penguin has signed in on skype", the familiar yellow frame slowly crept up on the bottom right of my screen.. Damn i shouldn't have seen it.. My heart sank on the spot. I never blocked him from my skype because of his inactiveness. I pulled myself together and went to watch a movie with my brother.
Half way through when i got back, i noticed he sent me a skype message..
My heart was beating so fast and yet i replied him..
We talked like normal, as if nothing happened and soon the conversation died off.
I gathered every bit of courage i had and i confronted him..
"Were you with XXX when you and I went out together?"
He actually explained everything to me..
Everything he said would sound so cliche if i wrote more but stupid as it is, i believe him..
Something made me feel like he was telling the truth..
Maybe its my feelings for him?..
Deep down i still miss him alot...
After everything I finally found closure..
A heavy burden of questions and confusion finally left and my shoulders felt light..
I know I am no longer his muse..